|I was laughing with the woman beside me up until the finish!|
I could not figure out what I wanted to do this fall in terms of races. I did do a 10k to raise money for Pancreatic Cancer in honor of my mom. It’s a fun run – very family orientated, heavily attended by families who have lost someone to pancreatic cancer. I always cry at the end. My mother would probably be distressed because I am all sweaty in athletic clothes and she was a girly girl. She was a ballerina when she was young and that is pretty intense athletically speaking but the object of that endeavor is beauty whereas running….well the object is finishing!
|The best pace partner ever!|
I ran it with my friend, Heather and it was foggy and cool….i could hardly see where I was which was good because it went fast. My friend has a bladder the size of a pea and the moment you say RACE - she wants a porta potty. SO considering a mile 2, she took a pee break and I waited – we did great. I always chat with people and we met some people who were involved in the organizing the race and running trail runs so we chatted the last 2 miles. So fun!
I like to dedicate races in my brain to people and obviously my mom was in my head the whole time – I burst into tears crossing the finish line. If I am in pain during a run, I think about the bravery of my brother as his prostate cancer metastasized onto his spine – I can always push thru it for him. I think about my sister and my father…..biking and running. My dad would bike in his professorial tweeds to the train station to go lecture at MIT – he would most definitely laugh at my spandex bike kit getup...
I have struggled with menopause stuff like hot flashes from hell and the period that never ended. I had this impression that this would go fast but apparently it’s a lie – this crap can last for years. I got a little tense with my doctor. WHAT THE HELL do you mean – years? I had always thought older women were wusses complaining about hot flashes. But NO it truly sucks – biggest problem is interrupted sleep and when you wake up every hour in a pool of sweat having to put a towel down to sleep – it can be messed up. That’s how they break prisoners of war you know….wake them up all the time and don’t let them sleep. I keep hoping I will lose some weight with all the sweating but no freaking luck.
|Me with Mom written on my arms!|
My doctor announces to me that I have severe symptoms and it is unusual – most women don’t have as severe hot flashes. She tells me this as I am having a hot flash in my little gown on the table in the stirrups. Is that supposed to make me feel better because I really think I may have snarled at her. My doctor decides an ultra sound is needed. I tell her I have a 10K coming up but that’s all – she looks at me like I from Mars. Really Doctor – I stopped bricks and super long rides and runs. I think I need a new doctor. The results suck of the ultrasound. They mutter biopsy and I sit in my car and cry. I have lost 3 members of my family to cancer and another is currently fighting hard (and losing) against a weird virulent cancer so you can say it’s a sore spot.
I go to a new doctor and she is very cool. She does the biopsy and gives me a clear. Phew. In the meantime I develop a sinus infection that slays me. I am on good drugs and lightly working out….actually wincing this morning because I did too many squats and lunges yesterday!
My plan is to be last-minute charley on short runs – if I see a race and I feel good – what the hell – I will do it. I will do a local half marathon in Jan and a Christmas 10k. I just saw a Thanksgiving Turkey trot. I am considering the LA Marathon. I had thought to do the HITS Tri in Palm Springs but I think this year is a wash for Tri’s. I will look to the Spring …..
|The reason to run....to be outside!!!|